so better get ready! 

you big fat user slash liar.

SUNDAY= sleep + pig out + rest period + pig out more + face computer + sleep

SUNDAY = OBESITY.

back to night shift tomorrow and this time, i have to bribe someone at the office to do overtime work til ten so i'll have company.

i've had enough of farming... i'm now hooked at looklet. :D

and....wala na'kong sasabihing matino nyahaha.

i want to talk to you, but sometimes i'd rather not >_<

green tea my ass sir! magtimpla ka ng sarili mong tsaa!

nurses will start doing their rounds next week--inside the production area. wow. hospital?

nobody is allowed to drink, no more coffee at work, not allowed to talk, musn't show your teeth. yamaoka-san has gone mad.

paano ako makakabili ng gusto ko kung lahat kayo ay may gustong ipabili? hmmmm

aga-aga ang sakit mo sa bangs.shet.

the problem, lately, is that my patience can hardly take him. i can't handle the jealousy well. it's not voluntary, you know, and as much as i don't want to be bothered by that feeling, i can't, cos it's there. im thinking, i want to break up with him cos i don't want to hurt him and i don't want his actions to hurt me too. also, the problem with him is he likes attention so much. when we're with a group of people, he only notices me when nobody else does. now how cool is that? this sucks.

6-2 at work.

2-10 somewhere else...and i'm still hyped!

hindi ako pwedeng umiyak. kaka-perm lang ng pilikmata ko. sa ibang araw na lang. echos.

it's difficult to just quit on you.  i guess i need a few more bitch slaps to wake me up and get my brain back together.

one day i'll eventually get tired of thinking and i'll accept the fact that you..... .......

 tama na nga. 'better go to sleep.

i hardly write my thoughts anymore partly because i think i haven't had time anymore and partly because i think my grammar is sucking more as time passes by--as i lessen reading classics, that is. my mind isn't what it used to be anymore. it's evident on how i performed last sem: low grades and low grades because i'm not able to memorize stuffs easily as i used to before. now it takes me quite a lot of time before i digest whatever i am studying. or maybe because i'm losing focus meaning i'm more easily distracted than before. i don't know but i'm trying to understand. i've been doing some things for my brain to become as active as before because i need it to function well. im fixing papers for my application in med. God knows how much i want to be admitted in UST cos well, i had my pre-med here and it's kinda hard to be admitted here so it's quite a challenge and i need a Catholic school, else my spiritual life will vanish in an instant again and of course, my boyfriend's here. the last thing i need to worry about is his becoming gay again because it will have a very heavy impact in my emotions. i might not interact with people anymore cos i might conclude that everyone will leave me anyway.

anyway, it's the start of a new sem. my birthday passed by without so much depression. it was there but it wasn't as destructing as before. i had fun actually because i had been with him and he gave me white lisianthus and white star gazers in a vase and i liked it a lot, especially because they're white and the lillies smell heavenly. i also received a virginia woolf hardbound. before that day, he told me that my birthday's gonna be different because from now on, i had him to celebrate it with.

again, it's the start of a new sem. later at 4pm (which is my first class, haha), i'll be seeing my classmates again, not everyone, i think, because a lot failed in Comparative Anatomy of Vertebrate Embryology Lab (phew) or simply Embryo lab. it's a littlle saddening cos failing in another subject last sem, for a few of my classmates, would mean not taking UST med as an option anymore because students with 12+ units of fail will be strictly not admitted.

this sem, my major subject's gonna be Physiology and Ecology. 3 minors, ETAR, PGR and an SCL, whose course description i forgot. there's still glee club, and i think we're going to prepare for Himig Tomasino and my other org, whose gonna sing again for the Paskuhan Mass, yey. which means a lot of practices at night.

later at 12nn, im going to have a meeting with med's sc president because of a collaboration with them for our PreMed Talk and Tour. im way excited to be in med but for now, i need to go to our office and check if the executive vp of my org's foundation has said something about our opening of a blood bank acct here at the univ hospital.