bad day. stressful. sana makarma lahat ng tarantadong drivers na gumitgit sa akin kanina. same goes sa lahat ng hindi nagpadaan sa akin nung kailangan ko nang lumiko na halos lumagpas na ako ng katipunan dahil ayaw nila akong pagbigyan. putangina. minsan talaga ang stressful magdrive. minsan gusto ko na lang umupo sa backseat sana may driver haha. or boyfriend taga hatid sundo. joke! oh well kailangan na lang tanggapin na hindi mawawalan ng heavy traffic sa manila plus rude asshole bastard drivers. lalo na yung taxi and fx drivers. potangina nila.

why are guys like that? kanina yung guy blockmate ko umutot pag daan sa aisle eh doon pa naman ako nakaupo. bastos! bakit ganun ang guys? kahit ano pwede nilang gawin? dahil lang ba babae ako ibubully na nila ako sa kalsada? hindi padadaanin o pagbibigyang lumiko? hahaha.

i hate guys. sometimes.

but i'll never forget the guy who went down his car to get my car out of the spot where it was an inch away from bumping into another car.

and the other guys.

the ones who made me smile.

and cry.

money.  i need money. this goes out to my dad. haha

i'm so sick and tired of attending these meetings for this event. i'm so glad it's gonna be over soon. there's no returning to that high school of mine that's full of bad memories anymore. haha. i'm so over everything. the guys who broke my heart. the teachers who manipulated us. the principal who knew nothing but blackmail. the ugly guard who thought he was hot. the guy who thought i could never let go of him. the other guy who thought i'm head over heels for him. inang high school yan. oh well.  at least i'm done with it.

i'm super tamad to do homeworks. i'm not supposed to be like this. can't stop drooling over my crush. kay fine gagraduate muna ako ng kolehiyo bago ako mag daydream about him. looks like i'll remain nbsb until i graduate from college. haha.

i went back to my high school the other day for an event, all because one of my best friends told me na tatadjakan niya ako if i didn't go. so even if i didn't want to (because i knew SOMEONE else was gonna be there), i still went there. it was super lousy. i didn't see a lot of my batchmates. but there he was, sitting with the feeling gwapo boys of the batch. i didn't pay him any attention and just tried to pretend i didn't notice he was there. it was his birthday and i was planning to totally ignore him. but then, when the event almost came to a close, and i was planning to leave, he asked how i have been doing. i didn't know what to say. because a year ago, i knew i had so much to say to him, so much questions to ask. but i went mute right at that moment. i just smiled. what the fuck. then before i left, i greeted him a happy birthday. whoo. no return of feelings what the fuck whatever. good job.

sir robbie gave a lecture about sin in theo class today.

and so i am starting to try my best to resist temptations.

my classmate and crush is a candy cutie!! wee!! i just found out yesterday. no wonderrr!! hahahaha.

i am so back in the game. no more high school crushes who aren't really hot. forget about (my) high school boys. yiee my (current) crush is so much better than HIM - in basketball,  in over - all appearance haha, plus he's a candy cutie! how can HE beat that?!

hooray to new life.

i would love to marry travis barker.

second sem na naman.

sa totoo lang tinatamad pa akong gawin ang hw sa accounting kaya nagblog na lang haha.

birthday ngayon ni letter day. ayoko siyang batiin ng happy birthday para maramdaman niya na hindi siya importante para sa akin haha. 

ayoko nang makita si wam kahit kailan pero syempre hindi niya alam. noong isang araw, habang inaantay ko ang next class ko sa loob ng kotse, nakita ko siyang dumaan. sinubukan kong magtago at humiga na lang para hindi niya ako makita. pero nakita kong tumigil siya sa harap ng kotse ko. pota alam niya nga pala plate number ko. di ko alam ang gagawin. haha. ayoko na nga siyang kausapin eh. di ko alam kung bakit noon kapag sabay kami dumarating sa school at nagkataon pang nagkita kami, sumasakay pa siya sa kotse ko para magkwentuhan kami. pero noong araw na iyon, ayokong mangyari yon. inayos ko na lahat ng gamit ko sa school at habang kinakatok niya ang bintana ko para buksan ko ang pinto, dali dali akong lumabas. kunwari bell na at kunwari gusto kong pumasok sa class ng extra early. haha.

konting kamustahan. "saan class mo?" "sige una na ko.."

bakit ako naiilang noon. i hate it. ayoko talaga siyang makita. bakit?

kasi sawa na ako.

cause for one second i thought that something beautiful was going to happen and the next second i realized it was only an illusion. cause with every minute i feel we're getting closer, the next minute he would try to push me away. and slam into my face that he has a thing for this girl and it's going really well so just don't get too close.

so wag na lang kaya iniiwasan ko siya. kasi naman eh bakit ba?

oh well may bago akong crush. yun.

goodbye wam. masyado kang feeling gwapo hahha. sabi nga there are so many fish in the sea. bagong buhay na to okay.